Very very thankful for my strong friends who keep me in check. I have a lot of shit going on with anxiety, etc, and watching them be fucking tough and act like the adults we are reminds me that I am not the only person who has problems. There is no “being an adult;” you either are one or you’re not. I don’t blame things on other people or the universe anymore. I’m genuinely a god damn idiot half the time and I’m working on that too. I know so many selfish, irresponsible people and I’m not okay with it anymore. I’m coming to the end of my freshman year of college and I’ve had the same job for almost a year! I pay for my own shit and I’m understanding how money works. I’ll never grow up, but I am growing as a person. I’ve made so many friends and I’m not dependent on the attention of any of them, especially the guys (even though all of them are hot and it’s not fair). Lastly, it’s been fucking months since I tried to act or look like anyone else. I am entirely myself and it is a good thing. Shit sucks and will continue to suck and be difficult, but with friends like these, it’ll be all right.
That ends my lameshit rant!
One of my main goals is to deconstruct/destroy the modern idea of romantic love because I’m of the opinion that it sucks